January 16, 2017


Woke up feeling a bit better, then I confided in my sister and my cousin about what happened yesterday - made me realise that I might be in a quarter-life crisis right now. Haha

I feel so psycho-ish that I hate everything! I want to do something I love, but of course, I can't let go of my job because how will I be able to travel or even go shopping?!

But I want to live my dreams! But I need the money!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I hate myself so much.

January 15, 2017

Lower than low

I went to the clinic today. False alarm lewlz. Turns out the signs my body was giving were not me being pregnant, its me being fat.

The doctor said I have to lose weight, back to when I was 18, and that's like 20kgs away.

How do you people do it? You get up, exercise, go to work, come back, then sleep?

I was just calculating my time and all, if I wanted to live healthily, its good riddance to my social life, TV, k-drama and all that jazz :( and its gonna be just work everyday. Where do I fit in time for my passion? Or my hobbies? To at least keep me sane and happy after coming back from a tiring day at work?

How do I do this......
I hate myself right now.

January 5, 2017

While my husband sleeps,

"I just want to see you
When you're all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I can't escape
I love you 'till the end

I just want to tell you nothing
You don't want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why don't you just take me
Where I've never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you 'till the end

I just want to be there
When we're caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
I'm lost for words don't tell me
All I can say
I love you 'till the end"

- The Pogues

January 3, 2017

Fresh Starts, Same Dreams

Because 2017 is already here, and I can never keep up to my NY resolutions, I thought maybe this should really be a place of random thoughts; should it influence you, you decide.

Then maybe when my lungs give in, and I'm no longer around, my husband, my family can end up here when they miss me :)

^ probably something like the movie PS I Love You

Beginning with : 03/01/2017

Sent Mirrul to the LRT Station for his first day of work at a company he applied since 2014. Feeling so blessed that Allah has put things into place so wonderfully, that I even get to drop by at my parents' place while I wait for my turn to go to work.

May 2017 brings all of us closer together, wiser and happier.

November 17, 2016


My heart is just restless. Tossing and turning, unable to sleep. I'm tired, but I can't sleep.

This morning I realized that it must have something to do with my mom. I know that her heart is not at ease and I've not done much to help her either.

All my life it has always been just us. All my life I never strayed away from her. Since my wedding, I moved out and stayed with my husband. Now I understand how hard it is being away from her.

I wish my mom knows how much I miss her, how she is always on my mind and that I actually never stopped missing her. I hope she knows that I am working hard because I want to give back to her. I hope she knows that I am always around whenever she needs me. I hope she knows that I love her more than anything in this world.

Through it all mom, Allah is great and He is with you. As tough as things get, you should know that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

We haven't had any "mother daughter" time for quite a while now, let's do lunch?

Missing you so much,
Your Rissa.

October 12, 2016

Chinese Visa for Malaysians

We were supposed to fly to China some time this month last year, went to do my passport yadayada, flight was on a Monday, on Sunday, I realized, that I needed a visa.

Missed my flight, never gotten a visa, and never went on my ticket's postponed trip to China. 

Took the initiative this time, very last minute, but I did it. 

Few days before you want to apply for your Chinese visa, compile these documents beforehand so you will not have any problems once you're there:

- Completed Chinese Visa application form << click to direct to page
(you can get this form at the embassy, or you can fill in the form online)
- Bring your passport that is still 6 months valid from travelling date 
- A copy of your passport's front page
- 2 Passport size photo (white background only)
- Supporting documents: hotel booking copy, flight booking ticket copy

That's done, head down to their new office. They used to be located in Plaza OSK. No longer kaysss.
Address is as per below:

Embassy of the People's Republic of China
Level 5 & Office, Jalan Mayang Sari & Persiaran Hampshire, 
Hampshire Park, 50450 Kuala Lumpur, 
Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Opening hours: Monday to Friday
Application Submission: 9.00am - 3.00pm (literally. no matter how long the queue is, they will stop you)
Payment & Passport collection: 9.00am - 4.00pm

p/s: you can have a representative to go and do the visa application & collection for you. 

Be there by 8.45am, and you'll be okay. 
My experience was, I reached there around 10.00am, and the queue was super long, I reached the "document checking" counter around 2.45pm. Close call. I was so nervous I'll never make it to the counter by 3.00pm!

The Pak Guard was like "pukul 3.00pm kaunter depan tutup!"

First you have to hand in and let them check your documents first. It's the counter right in front of the entrance door - you won't miss it. They will ask you things like, single entry, or double entry. That's all. 

You will then be given a number to go to the next counter.
Then wait for your number to be called out, here's where you hand in your passport, visa application form, and other supporting documents. 

They will inform you when you can collect your passport and visa.
The process takes about 4 days minimum. So purchase your accommodations, flights, and do your visa at least 2 weeks before. Otherwise you'll end up as paranoid as me. 


Collecting your visa is easy. You can come slightly later than the time you invested for the application, hehe because it will not take that long.

Same building, level 6. 
Get your number, wait a little more, then make your payment. 
They will tell you which counter to collect your passport :)

Before you leave, check your passport first. 
Is it really your passport? Are the details in the visa correct?

If all is well, time to be excited for your trip!
Safe journey lovelies.

October 4, 2016

Faith in Humanity Restored!

Last Friday, my boss accidentally banked in my colleague's (W) pay to my bank account.
She asked me to help transfer it to W, because she was tied up with things. So, I did.

I didn't ask my boss for the bank details, as it would just bother her even more.
Searched through my Whatsapp history with the boss, then I found the details.
I remember back in January, W was saying that she had problems with her Maybank account at the time, and that she preferred her pay to be transferred to CIMB instead.

Long story short, I transferred the amount, to the bank account given, and I did not even check the Account owner details, requested for TAC number, received TAC number, keyed in TAC number, transfer SUCCESSFUL. I logged out, to know that the Account Owner had a different name than W's!!!!!

I panicked. I  panicked.

I called Maybank's hotline, and they mentioned that I needed to go to the nearest branch.
Maybank will not be responsible on M2U transactions, and they can't stop any transaction, especially if they're successful. My only option was to lodge a report, and Maybank will get some kind of approval from the receiver to reimburse the money to my account. Susahnya!!!

Me: Apa jadi kalau receiver tu taknak bagi duit tu balik and claim itu duit dia?
Maybank Attendant: Itu kami tak boleh janji Puan, sebab Puan sepatutnya check sebelum masukkan TAC number
Me: Jadi sekarang ni tak boleh nak buat apa-apa la?
Maybank Attendant: Tak boleh Puan. 

To top it all, this happened on a Friday night. OF ALL DAYS!
"Screwed. I'm screwed."

I still had enough cash left, to transfer to W, I did that first.
I was mentally prepared and ready to go through all that hassle of making reports to Maybank, and police reports. But I asked W, if she knew who owned the account number that she gave to me back in January. Alhamdulillah, she knew who it was, and she still had the girl's phone number.

Found some courage to call up the girl, and explain what happened.
I was lucky. Alhamdulillah.
Alhamdulillah, it fell into someone who had a good heart.

The next morning, I did not receive any updates from the person, I checked my bank account, and my September gaji is back :D

Honestly, it felt like everything was just a dream. But it wasn't.